I have been thinking//formulating

As of late, I have been exposed to relationships that exist and function outside the realms of the average. This is not a description of dysfunction as much as it is a nod to the observation that relationships, of any type, are tailor-made and should be a personal fit to the individuals that are compatible enough to work as a unit.

With that being said, I have been drawing conclusions about dating, courtship and commitment. In the never ending occupation of examining my life and decisions in a timely manner, these are what I know to suit where I am now. According to my close friend, last night, the idea I am about to propose is something that does not normally exist and is of a futuristic, sophisticated nature. I do not agree. However, I think the only time sexual relationships are honest is when they are of an illicit nature, involving cheating. Because the preoccupation of at least one of the parties in a committed relationship, these circumstances facilitate open and clear discourse about the nature and progression, or lack thereof. I think this honesty should exist in relationships that are not illicit. I do think it is of interest to have a close, sexual relationship, meaning one in which the state of each's emotions and expectations are laid out in the beginning and revisited as necessary. This does not necessarily mean, full disclosure, in fact it does not mean that or becoming best friends. It only allows for each person to maintain the individual goals in the other aspects of their respective lives while sharing their bed and some of their time with a partner. In any case, I think this would prevent a lot of feelings from getting hurt due to the initial standards and conduct, allowing for the progression of intimacy or clean dissolution. Doing or not doing something to not hurt the other party does nothing but create a stifling discomfort and suffering on both parts. Keep it real with yourself and you can keep it real with your sexual partner/ girlfriend/ boyfriend/ best friend/ whatever.

Due to the external pressure and standards, of being single, married, and child-bearing and feeling a certain way if you see that you are not reaching the deadline you set at 16 or even 21, I think a lot of people fall into a trap of insecurity which uses the association of a relationship as a indicator of well-rounded success. Too many unnecessary compromises are made, comfort is sacrificed and we are swept up in a tidal of frantic decision making. I am a big fan of moving slowly, if both parties are working on their adulthood and have a mutual respect for each other to communicate about placement and priorities.

I know this is possible. It is a clean and rational way to deal with the interpersonal intimacy of physical relationships, with people that you are not just trying to fuck, of course. That is a different story altogether. And above all else, do not settle for just fucking someone you have feelings for just to maintain intimacy.

This requires that all personal motives and feelings be fully addressed and resolved before involving another person in your fuckery.

Eat up.

ABUNDANCE

I recently went to visit my brother on the West Coast. He told me about the second album by PPP (formerly Platinum Pied Pipers, titled, Abundance.

To make a long story short, PPP comprises of two producers, and the featured albums has their tracks, cohesively, and and ensemble set of singers to be found throughout the album. Coultrain, Karma Stewart, and Jamila Reagan, with one song with Neco Redd on vocals. A dance party that encompasses American black music, so not just one of the default genres, but a natural progression of music, using basic structural ideas appropriated to create a fresh sound without seemingly trying. I would also like to note that the lyrical content, as it is hard to hear and understand every word, due to the layered vocal arrangements, is of an intelligent quality. The ideas of love and relationships, the good and bad, and personal motivation, are present throughout the album but new language adds a much needed dimension to the rigmarole.

I enjoy it.

"Triple P, the debut from the then-Platinum Pied Pipers (now just PPP), was a deserved recipient of glowing reviews and dropped jaws throughout independent music media. Refining if not revolutionizing modern soul, Triple P announced a new player in 2005. In 2009 the player is established and Abundance announces a new game.

There is something inherently carefree about this album. It’s unfortunate to realise, but what sets Abundance apart from so many modern releases is that it is obviously the result of a deep musical passion and a delight in musical experimentation. Wajeed and Saadiq stick to the decidedly Detroit formula of big drums and dirty synths, but manage to give the motor city’s model a new chassis to handle the now even stronger bumps. Alongside the rejuvenated production is PPP’s refined vocal lineup: Previously a mash up of all Detroit had to offer, the vocal responsibilities now lie with the smoky tones of Coultrain, the soul of Karma Stewart and the sugar of Jamila Raegan. With the smaller cast, Abundance is as cohesive as any producer-based album could hope to be.

Abundance breaks the boundaries of R&B and is far too much fun to be labeled neo-soul. Sitting happily in it’s own genre, Abundance is an album many will be compared to in years to come."

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Cliche Anyone?

Happy Holiday for all of us that need things to celebrate, no matter how minute. DO not get me wrong I am on of those people. If you are a chronic (pun intended) participant, like myself, I am sure you do not a need a date to get closer to Jah.

Here is that pep to get you through the work day...










Brown Sugar - DAngelo

just a few of the many...

I get up Early

This is TreZure the Empress performing at Public Assembly for Forever Fresh 5.

Right now, live, this is my favourite part of her set because she is speaking to women like me. Caught up in the individual vs. subscription to partnership, sweet and mean as I ever wanted to be.

Going from looking for someone to hold my right side, in the morning, because I work hard and I love crazy to establishing that...

My man don't need no sugar in his coffee. He likes me mean.
He needs his mean old black woman.

And when I am good and ready, I will need him too.

C'mon are you fucking serious? ...Like Fa'real?

LORD JESUS PLEASE TAKE ME HIGHER!!! I CAN'T!!!....

SOOO....I WAS CLEANING OUT MY INBOX AND CAME ACROSS AN EMAIL I RECIEVED ON MY BIRTHDAY FROM A FORMER CLASSMATE THAT MADE ME WANT TO TAKE A CAB TO HER BOROUGH AND SLAP HER. PARDON ME, BUT BITCH I'M ALMOST A QUARTER AND YOU SENT ME A BEAUTIFUL EMAIL AND FUCKED IT ALL UP AT THE END BY PUTTING " SINCERELY, ALEXUS A.K.A. LITTLE LEXI A.K.A. LEX BOOGIE"

WHAT THE F**k!!....(INHALE)

BITCH!! ARE YOU INSANE? YOU'RE OLDER THAN ME AND YOU'RE STILL INCORPORATING THE OLD SCHOOL ELEMENTARY THROWBACK "A.K.A." REFERENCE. I MEAN, WHO THE HELL DOES THAT. YOU WERE BORN IN THE EARLY 80'S AND YOU'RE SENDING ME EMAILS LIKE YOU JUST GOT OFF THE GOTDAMN MAGIC SCHOOL BUS (BY THE WAY TELL KISHA I SAID HEY WHEN YOU SEE HER..SHE'S MY FAV)

I DONT GET IT. I MEAN AM I JUST OVERDOSING ON MY GROWN MAN SWAGG THAT THIS BEHAVIOR IS JUST UNBEARABLY UN-FUCKIN-REAL TO ME? OR DOES "ALEXUS" NEED TO TURN IN HER "GOOSEBUMPS" SCHOOL BOOKS AND STEP HER GAME UP? BY THE WAY THIS IS COMING FROM SOMEONE WHO WORKS A CORPORATE 9-6.

PLEASE TELL ME IF I'M WRONG? ANYONE WHO KNOWS ME UNDERSTANDS WHY I FIND THIS TO BE RATHER RIDIC!

THANKS FOR READING

P.S. THE FACT THAT IM WRITING THIS MAKES MY PALM ITCH!! AND PLEASE DON'T ACT LIKE YOU'VE NEVER HAD THE " SLAP A BITCH ITCH" ...ITS ACTUALLY VERY THERAPEUTIC IF I MUST SAY SO MYSELF.

Face 2 Face Vs. Myspace??

Soooo True!! After viewing this please refer to my previous blog " Me, YOu and your sidekick" .....whats your point of view?

Fat, Black and Ugly as ever, however

He stayed Coogi down to the socks...
and I am not sure if this is still too soon, but I will always feel it's time to get paid, blow up like the (see above).

Anyway, when I heard Biggie was killed, I was in church. At this time, I was in seventh grade, we did not listen to secular music in the morning, my mother was not having it. Since the shooting occurred in la madrugada it was very easy to not hear about immediately. My peers in my church class, as we were divided by age groups, were talking about his death, and of course linking it with TuPac, the whole time we were in Sunday class, and not doing a Bible role play. I merely wrote them off as being misinformed, because EVERYONE else was wrong. Exactly. At the end of church, on the way home, we were allowed to listen to the radio station we preferred which was Hot 97, where we found out that what I had been hearing that day was in fact true. Biggie was shot and DOA in Los Angeles, California.
Damn.
The fucked up thing about that was, Mo' Money, Mo' Problems was the single after, Hypnotize. Diddy, in his verse on Mo' Money states mess around with DOA be on your way. Right?

I was hurt. I think I am still hurt. I remember one time Biggie stopped by HOT 97 on his way back to New Jersey and shouted out Faith, Chyna and CJ, saying he had to get medicine for Chyna because she was sick. I also remember hearing him talk about his next album, Life After Death, and how he was not in the same frame of mind as Ready to Die, he actually wanted to live and this album would show his life on the other side. He was saying that the album was almost finished how excited he and focused he was. I remember it like it was not TWELVE YEARS ago.

To this day he is the only rapper, and one of the few musical artists to put out a classic double album.

For the nicest MC, niggas know the steelo