Sad in the Pants II (Sutures)

I wish there was a way to be normal in a situation where only extremities are experienced. 'Easier said than done' is not even the half. My mental preparation undoes itself like an intricate knot, pulled at the sight of you. Leaving me with the anticipation of an interaction on the precipice of the event horizon hurling towards singularity. My intentions can not escape and all I can do is maintain my position in spaces relative to this variable unknown, to be described loosely as my love for this sordid force of nature beyond my comprehension. Within the parameters of rationale, so much time has passed, so many relationships have come and gone, there is no reason for the tension to be so caloric as to leave me full for days, exercising my mind to break even. It does not make sense. The force is so strong I can not tell if it is I who rejects the advances of a possible small chat or if I lose my courage to do so from the force with which I tangle.

It takes a long time to get over being pulverized emotionally in a public display of feigned privacy. To never think but to then accept as the truest reality that the same love that made me laugh made me cry- as my castigation (shout to Bill Withers).
I am chilling now, but I still can not seem to figure out how to stabilize a situation I am unfamiliar with and will I be ready to move forward without getting caught in the black hole of my unchartered emotions. It has been so long, I wonder if it has been too long and whether it is my job to go out on a limb, with no direction and nothing but a nasty scar across memories of my life. But what could have been the small hint of something with potential lost inside a cloud of dust and storms? Where is the source of the feeling of unfinished business keloiding over battle wounds? How am I to know they are reciprocal and I am not at the point of singularity, stuck at nothing. There is no way of telling but I am not sure if I want to find out. This love hurts enough already, every time it is revisited, even as a minute prospect in my mind.

Tell me how my ass tastes!

I hope this sends you through the rest of your week

I Might Take Out a Loan for This...

This is a chair called 'Perspective', designed by Pharrell Williams in conjuction with Domeau and Peres for an exhibition at the Emmanuel Perrotin Galerie. The chair will be on display, along with another chair design and a table, October 21, 2008 through Jaunuary 10, 2009, in Paris. The 'Perspective' chair will be reproduced in three other colors in a limited amount to be sold.

Pharrell's take on his design, is a way to 'sit in the seat of' rather than 'in the shoes of' people that are really in love, as he states he has never been. The front legs of the chair resemble a woman's from the knees down, standing on the balls of her feet. The back legs are of a man standing firmly behind her. The chair represents compromise married with constructed gender roles, positively, in my opinion. The female represented in the forefront displays the security the man has in the woman to be the face of the relationship and his role to stand behind her and support her. In addition to this, in light of obvious reasons to differentiate gender, the standing on the balls of her feet define a difference in height, or stature and her rising to meet her lover's perspective. To sit in the chair is to recognize that some of us were born to this loving relationship, and that it is something most of us aspire to or desire.



If I could I would. Trust me.

Happy hot as Fuck Monday

I got this from allhiphop.com

Do enjoy this delightful treat and ode to the power of the PUSSY

A reason, Or a season, but not neccessarily a Lifetime!!

One of the hardest things i've come to learn, and might i say still am adjusting to it's knowledge, is being responsible for myself. Now when I say being responsible for self, I mean being conscious about the cause and effect of things and how it will affect me. The choices we make dictating the opinions we are willing to take from society, friends, family, self, etc. One example of this is relationships. Friendships that go sour and lovers that become a muse for songs of " I hate you so much right now" lol. A close friend of mine wrote a blog called " spring cleaning" in which she deciphers the concept of GOD re-arranging your circumference by removing unhealthy people and things to make room for clarity and peace of mind. This is a prime example of being responsible for self. The wisdom and courage to understand when things that you love can become things that you need to love from a distance. People who we meet and fall in love with but they aren't willing to commit to reciprocity, these are situations where you have to muster all of the strength from you and GOD and commit to loving yourself more. You are always given a choice, victim or victorious, and clearly I wanna be victorious. However, nobody gains victory without sacrifice, pain, sorrow, and some bitterness. I feel once you gain consciousness and overstanding of your situation or conflict you are then responsible for making a choice. We've all seen the movie " what's love got to do with it" and we wonder why the hell Tina just didn't get the hell up and leave. She didn't have the will and courage to be responsible enough and decide that she wasn't going to entertain Ike's bullshit anymore. Anyways, to make this blog shorter than a novel I ask of you readers to do some of your own " spring cleaning" . Re-evaluate your circumference and your life and take action to things and people who aren't benefiting your life and allowing you to reach a higher plateau. Mother, Father, Sister, Brother, Lover, Uncle, Friend, Everyone's growth is different and many times people just grow apart. That's life and reality is Harsh. DEAL WITH IT!!

Please don't stop the music!!!!! ...NO really!!!

what the fuck is really good with the summer 2008 club banger? I mean, do we actually have one? Does anybody care about having a song equivalent to a summer blockbuster movie? Does anyone actually watch TRL anymore? I cannot remember the last time i've actually watched that show...maybe circa 2003? I'm a big fan of VH1 soul, i think it's so refreshing to hear throwback quality R&B/pop music. The music you played in the background when you were talking on the phone to your first love (immature, the boys, mista, imajin, tracy spencer). Sorry i just had to vent because " Get me bodied" will and cannot be the anthem of 2008. Solange are you ready?

Kudos to michelle williams for her single " we break the dawn" also look out for her song " Stop this car" off her soon to be released r&b debut album. She might just save us all lol.